11 days until Depression

11 days until depression.

2008, is the year where Miss Merisha becomes a junior. Where I live, we enter VCE.

The subjects that I have chose for this year are English, Text and Tradition, Specialist Maths, Physics, Chemistry, International Studies, Economics and Chinese.

I currently work at 2 places an asian grocery shop and a fast food place.
When school starts I want to join a badminton club.

Right now I'm copping fine but in the upcoming months I think I'll start to struggle.

There are many things to do and very little time.

One of the teachers has elected me, to be a leader of a club.

Then above all I still want to participate in debating.

I'm starting to worry that I won't have enough time for all my plans.


The one thing that's causing me the most grief is starting VCE. I feel it'll mean the end of my social life.
I'll spend massive amount of my time studying and if I don't I'll fail. If I fail, I won't be able to attend University.
If I don't end up with good grades when I won't be able to get into the university course that I want.
I'm worried about my subject selections, I worry that the course work will be far too hard for me.
I worry about my future university. What if, there my choice isn't the right one.

What if I don't really like Engineering? What if I don't like any of their courses offered.
What if I don't get my uni degree?

There are many things to worry about. These 2 years will determine my future and what type of life I'll lead.

I know life is a worry and I should just relax and enjoy life. I know the same can be said about VCE.
I just can't see that. I see VCE as something I should work hard for and the outcome will probably disappoint me.

The other issue that I worry about is a tutor. Do I need a tutor?
I'm aware that tutor fees are expensive but if I can do well without a tutor then there's no point in having a tutor.

Looking at my results last year, I did well on the objects that I don't have tutors for.

See VCE = Depression.
Just thinking about it, makes me sad.
Makes me feel depressed.

Welcome depression until end of 2009.