my fat face again! missed me?
Arwen turned 1 on 01/01/09
yes, i cut her bangs...lol but they grew out already! see below:
I've been up to nothing but being a mommy...lol
It never really hit me, but I've got some people post stalking me. They even PM me. And it's not the regulars that I chat with, but people that are obsessed with my whole being. Obesessed with every little detail of my life. But I also like playing mind games. You guys/gals give me a good laugh anyway. But I didn't really think that people can get obsessed or intrigued enough by a person online whom they've never even met. I'm flattered.
Oh, boy!!!!!!!! I've been so obssessed with my bowel movements lately. I need to go buy some colace, but sickens me to just think about taking it...lol There's too much iron in my prenatal pills.
Eversince I became pregnant, I've been having lots of weird dreams. They're not scary, but more like dreams that I make me mad. I'm always angry in my dreams...lol My hormones are going crazy anyway.
I've been thinking about what I'll have lately. Will it be a boy or a girl? My tummy is starting to show a little more. I can't wait until it really shows. I am so blessed to be pregnant. Though it's not how I had planned it, I'm still very happy about it. I feel like a 40 year old that's pregnant for the first time. I just thought that it would never happen, but it did.
I can look at my sonograms over and over. I'm just full of happiness.
What a rough night/morning I've had! I have scratches all over my arms from various patients. They were in such a combative mood. It was a cold night, maybe they're pissed about the weather change....lol I always get beat up. I guess my new haircut makes me look a bit younger. The patients kept asking if I were old enough to work and kept calling me little girl. I'll take it as a compliment. I was so sleepy driving home. I didn't take a lunch break last night. I might eat something or just go to sleep. I'm tired. And this is my weekend off! Heck, yeah!
"He" called me last night around 3:45 am. I should have never picked up. We argued like usual. And I tried explaining to him why I'm so unhappy with him, what I'm angry about, and why we can't be together. Guess what? He didn't catch a damn thing. So he kept asking me what the problem was. I was trying to tell him for half an hour, and he still didn't get it or see a problem. So I told him to just leave me alone. I really need to change my number.
Gosh, I hate not being able to talk to him. I'm upset right now with all that has been going on. The one person that I want to talk to about it, he blows up at me. He even hung up on me! I just called to talk. I knew he would get mad about the problem, but I did not expect him to hang up on me. He's supportive in every other way, but not emotionally. I don't know why. I can't break that barrier of his. I'm glad that he was like this today though. It's just reaffirming the fact that I should not be with him any longer nor should I move to TX to be with him. I'm through.
Gosh, I'm so mad right now. Stupid brother just called and said that his tuition payment is due, and asked if I would pay for it 'cause he doesn't work. He hasn't been working for a long time now. He just doesn't want to work. Yes, I paid for it. My parents refused to pay this time since they pay for everything else and they are tired of him leeching. And the other thing is, he said that he had no idea of its due date until they called him today to tell him that it was due today. He claimed that they told him to wait for a call, but that's ridiculous. What company waits until the very due date to call someone and tell them that a payment is due. He has it so easy. His cellphone and other little things, I pay for month to month. His car, insurance, his home, computer/internet, my parents pays for all of that. He's such a spoiled brat. And my parents are tired of talking to him, so they harrass me about talking to my brother. I'm not his mom or dad! Spoiled my damn day off from work. My father tried hiring him for his company, but my brother didn't take the job seriously. He thought he didn't have to do anything since my dad owns it, but he got fired by my dad. lol I also blame my parents for spoiling him way too much and not making him really do anything. He's a nice kid and stays out of trouble, but he's lazy as heck. I should have never told him that if he just went to school, he didn't have to work. But it has become apparent that he just doesn't want to do anything anymore. He's 21 now. He's not a kid anymore, that's what makes it so bad. And it seems kind of too late to change his habits.
I've noticed that a lot of stars/clebs tend to start a fashion line or some stupid perfume when they're no longer as popular as they used to be....lol And the thing sis, most of them will not be successful.
I eat out too much. I've become a regular to all the food places around my town. They know me. It's like damn. I need to start doing some situps or something. My metabolism is not as fast as it used to be. I'm going to be obese soon....lol It's so hot today. I'm sweating like crazy and I basically just got out of the shower.
The weather is perfect today. I woke up early to go pay some bills and buy some plantains to fry. Thanks WarEngineer, I do feel better. I always feel better with you around.
I was cleaning out my car, and forgot about where I had put my drink. I drove up a little hill and it spilled! I hope it doesn't smell too bad as it's drying up. I should go get my care detailed, but I'm lazy.
I like country boys 'cause they're so courteous. I've had so many men ranging in all colors, mostly white, open doors for me around the south. When I was living in bigger cities, everyone was so rushed and not as courteous. I wouldn't mind marrying a good ole southern boy.
I had a rough night at work. I also got into an arguement with "him". I don't know why little things that he does pisses me off so bad. And he never wants to talk about it. I'm also mad at the other guy. Stupid guys!