I’ve been thinking lately that people may have 100% contentment once in a while but never thought they get it everyday through out their lives til I watched Oprah show. Coz I feel like I do not have quite the degree of control over my life that I should have. I should reach it first to get my 100% percent, shan’t I?
Events seemed to occur in ways that foil my best-laid plans and yet bring results that I could never have dreamed of. Right after getting promoted to the news division, I was very satisfied and felt 100% contentment. All was good, my colleagues, my job-desk and schedule and plans. One month later it decreased to 70% and now after 3 months it’s only 50% of contentment. Oh…while I’m writing this, suddenly I realized…this is like a circle. It’s dejavu…
I mean…I was in marketing division and ‘twas all good in the beginning till my intellectual needs roared. Not that you don’t need brain in marketing. But keeping your sales record by “deceiving” clients (aka white lies) with ratings and all that, it just sucked my brain out.
First time I got my first clients, ‘twas like riding a roller coaster. My adrenaline at the highest level, I was ecstatic and thrilled, and by the end of the days after all the upside-downs and head over heals; I slept tight with smile on my face. Yeah…100% contentment. That was what I thought. It didn’t last forever though. So I asked to leave. And now in my new place it’s happening again. Hello!! Where are this 100% going??
I took my first 30 minutes walk 2 days ago as one of my new year’s resolution, ‘living the life healthier’, which I did just 3 months after new year. I walked on foot from my house to the traditional market in the morning. It took me 5 minutes by car but 15 minutes on foot. I just know that the market is on the eastern part, and considering the Pythagoras law about the shortest way to reach my destiny, I picked labyrinth-like route: Go straight-go left-go straight-go right-go left…and so on.
Walking is also the best way for contemplation. It’s the cheapest exercise I know. I crossed the rural area I’ve never been to before and saw several unique tiny but well architecture houses. I walked on the narrow streets at the backyards and could hear someone singing in the bathroom and water splashing. Some mothers with babies gathering before the warung, and talking nonsense. Some old men (a retirement troops, perhaps) sat around the corner and sipping coffees. Getting nearer to the market place, I saw becak men sleeping under the trees and I passed the newspaper-stand guarding by an old grandma. I dropped by and bought a magazine. She gave me a warm smile. Perhaps I was her first consumer that day. I wonder how they live with minimum wage. Seemed they had no troubles in their simplicity. Of course I know there’s none are trouble-free in life, however.
Several days ago I said in my blog I had everyone’s dream job. But 100% contentment doesn’t only live in it. Maybe some of us have too much to ask while the others grateful for tiny things they have. Maybe to reach that 100% contentment through out my life is just stop full of beans and make a change. Yet my honey ever said it is best to be patient and instead just surrender to the flow of life. It’s dejavu again coz just like a wise line I read today: “Let life happen, and don't try to force it to conform to your wishes.”
Not my nature, bu I’m trying to do so. Whoa! I have so much to learn! Buzz off!