Me vs. Fact vs. Fiction

No. It's not about writing things...

Separating fact from fiction is an issue I need to deal with sometimes. I’m normally a very direct and straightforward person. My friends said I value truth and honesty but sometimes I’m in the situation where I don’t wanna face the facts, especially when it’s related to a close friend. Yeah, I must admit that.

Once my best girl-friend told me that someone I knew well wasn’t as good, compassion, wise and perfect as I thought since she had experienced the dark side of him. I didn’t buy it. Then several friends came to me with unpleasant experiences. Still I didn’t buy it. I thought this person could be positioned as one of the heroes in sort of fictions. So I keep sticking on my own judgment and ignored the others.

Today, I know I was wrong. I witnessed some unfairness he did to the others. Yet I can’t tell him my fullest opinion straight on his face. I know a good friend is a friend who tells you when you go wrong, and not just when you’re right. The thing is, even though I’m straightforward, I just couldn’t let the feeling go easily cause I wanted to keep the fiction livelonger (I just told him not even half of my opinion, assuming he would catch the whole essence, and it failed). But when it was too late and things were getting worst, I gave up and left in a disappointment.

So there, I've decided. I left my friend. Not that it’s easy. I just don’t see any point in keeping my relationship with someone who can’t value itself. See, I may not have given much conscious thought to my intrinsic value system, but could encounter an event that will bring my deepest philosophy of life into question. (What’s life actually?)

I should keep in my mind that the real truth will come to light sooner or later and that I will have to deal with it then. And I do hope someday my friend realizes there are worthier things in life than what he’s doing now.