Blue Moon

I have never gone "clubbing" in Michigan until last month when some girl (a friend of my younger sister) threw her 21st birthday party at a club. I didn't know her but I knew her brother, who I used to hang out with back then. I was nervous going there because it's been roughly five years since anyone has seen me. I'm no twinkie but I haven't really partied with Hmong people around my age for over 6 years. Any ways, my brother and I met up with my sister at the club and were introduced to most of her friends. I clung on to my sister like some little kid, afraid to leave her mother's side. Yeah, kind of lame of me.

I felt incredibly shy when a guy dragged me to the dance floor. He was cute, charming, and talkative. HOWEVER, I have a boyfriend from out-of-state who trusts me. I guess my resistance was from contemplating whether or not to dance with him. Any ways, he eventually gave up and danced with some other girl. Strange but I felt like I lost a chance. BLAH! Why did I feel so?

Why did I make such a big deal? It's just a harmless dance, right? Before he tried pulling me to the dance floor, we had a 20-25 minute conversation. I have to admit that it took off great and I have not met a guy who's able to last that long in an interesting conversation with me first time around. Of course he asked about my status and I was quite honest about it: taken. Most guys would have left after that but not him. He continued talking and I actually liked it. I sort of felt taken away by him. Maybe that is why some people choose to not go to bars and clubs as much once they're in a good relationship. If I went further than just 20 minutes of conversing, I might have let myself fall for him. Would it have been wrong if I did? OR.. would it have been wrong to program my human feelings?

My brother and I left the club early and headed home. The next day, my sister told me how he mentioned me at an after party. He liked me. I felt giddy for a moment then shook my head into sense. I have a boyfriend.... I have a boyfriend.