A friend messaged me a couple of days ago on facebook. It was a relief to hear from her because had she not done so, I'd probably complain about her to my boyfriend or something. But reading her message was the first patch to a torn friendship. She expressed that she missed our conversations and my charisma. Her apology enlightened me and I completely forgot about the past. So I wrote her back. I didn't go into detail about the past because I'm sure she knew full well how our friendship died. I just congratulated her on her recent wedding celebration with her perfect man and told her to keep in touch =)
I looked through pictures of her simple wedding and I thought they are just the cutest couple. She's loud, vibrant, and strong-willed. He's sensitive, calm, and damn smart. They balance each other out.
I thought to myself, "How do you just know??"
How do you just know someone is the ONE for you? And when you know, is marriage that simple of an answer? I'm fenced on that whole marriage decision. Let's see...
In love? Check.
Financial stability? Check.
Career? [half] Check.
Great sex? Check + Star.
What else is there that's missing? I don't know. I mean, it's not like I'm waiting for someone else "better". I'm happy with my current lover. I'm happy with how he loves me and how he appreciates me. I can't imagine being with anyone else who'll care about me half as much as he does. I don't believe it's the speculation that something is missing but it's the fear of a failed committment on my part.
I admire friends who aren't afraid to look at their lover straight in the eyes and say "I DO". If it were me, I might pull a runaway-bride-stunt. Any ways, when the time is right, I guess I will know.
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