Is the Philippines really worth it?, I'm starting to give up Options

[YasukeKomiya]

We who are educated in the matter of Rizal know that he really wanted the Philippines to become a province of Spain. Independence, he mentioned, was the only alternative people would take if Spain refused reforms in the colony. He only said this as a statement never really advocating independence cause deep down he loved Spain (probably more than the Philippines and China where his ancestors came from). If our supposed hero advocated for our country to be a province what does that tell? It says that our country wasn't worth $hit to be a real nation and that it should depend on some other govt. miles away to give it any purpose. What kind of @$$hole would be willing to let his homeland just be a province to some goddamn foreigners instead of asking for independence. Do Okinawans want to be part of Japan? No they want independence because culturally and ethnically they are not Japanese. Now fast forward, we have independence yet our govt. is a failure (we are a fu-king joke in Asia where things are progressing whether economically or socially) and people leave it for greener pastures. Sure they send money back but its for the family. Our govt. doesn't give a fu-k in seeing the whole nation prosper, they only give a damn about filling their own goddamn pockets. The people may be no better as they just either complain or bring each other down instead of collectively getting $hit done. We learned individualism from the West and we are doing a fu-king fine job in doing that. Going back to Rizal he said if they can't be a province of Spain they could at least emulate Spain and fully Hispanicize the archipelago. Apparently our native culture along with the nation isn't worth $hit to at least be mixed, we must be as he advocated the fu-king Spain in Asia. Even today our "multicultural" society seems to be just people who either want to copy Spain, America, or even Korea for some reason. I don't mind foreign influence (nearly every country on Earth is like that some more than others) but when people only try to put in bits of the native culture its sad. People like to say we are mixed but in reality it is really people just focusing on one aspect. People send money from overseas to the Philippines only to comeback and see that its still the same $hithole they left. Scientists, engineers, doctors, authors, and ect. don't come back to help, sure the govt. is an obstacle but still they could at least fu-king try or at least make some effort to the help the homeland. I want to believe our country is worth saving but if people like Rizal, our "national hero" and advocate of Tagalog, in the end just wanted our homeland to be some fu-king province and wrote his last words in Spanish it seems like it doesn't matter. I'm in a serious crisis and I have no friends to talk to (all the Pinoys and Pinays I know don't like to talk much about the Philippines, again another reason to see how worthless our country is) and I could use probably some wiser persons advice.