Mar 31 2008, 07:45 PM
Trying to write something based on my own experience lol, everything is real.
It wasn't so long ago, no, it still very clear in my mind, that day when we were at the airport. Mama, papa, my 3 brothers and of course my sister, we were saying our last goodbye. Oh no, I have more than 3 brother, one of my oldest, the brother i like the most had to stay back in Vietnam. At that time, I didn't understand why he cant come with us? Did he hates us? No, he was over 21 years old. Of course it was suppose a happy day, but i had seen alot of tears. Mama, with a smile on her face but oh i can tell her heart was beign stab by thousand of knives. But that is my mama, she was, is and will always be the strongest one, the leading one in the family. Oh I admire mama, she is my idol ever since i can remember. Life in Vietnam was such beautiful time. I loved where I live, I like the cool breeze of Da Lat in the evening, the dancing of the trees in the wind, the warm summer. It's such beautiful,innocent, and peaceful time, I followed my sister going around, catched bugs and watch them race...it was also hard for me to leave all my friends back there. But there was nothing i can do, we were leaving, and that was that. I hugged my god mother. She hadn't been my godmother for long but I could feel so close to her already, like there was a connection. I almost wanted to cry, no i did cried. It was time to go, oh i hated it, we slowly, walked while we wabed our hands, we walked through a room seperated by a glass wall. I wanted to break through that glass wall and stay there forever. But I know mama wasn't going to be happy.
Sat on the warm seat, I was more relax. but ma, i know there was no warmth in her now. She missed my oldest brother already. Looking at her sent a stab into my heart. There was a lump in my throat, but I know I have to keep it in, if i'm gonna break out crying, mama will nag me. I turned around and looked through the window. I wondered.....how soft are those clouds? I want to feel it. It seems so puffy and soft.....I wanted to hold in in my hand....to cuddle with it. Soon they serve us food, but oh i wasn't use to those food so i feel like puking when they gave me the food. At night they gave us a thin blanket, I decided to look through the window for the last time before going to sleep, but i guess the the woman on the airplane was mad at me. She closed it and told me something, I was not sure what she said...but soon, confused and wondering, i fell asleep. It seem like it had just been a minutes before I woke up again, but it had been a long time, We soon got off the planes.....I think it was taiwan, where we got off.
We had another flight, we flied over a very big sea. It took many hours before we land in Los Angeles. at that time none of us were missing anybody......we were lost....in this big land....in Los ANgeles, worse then that, all we had was my brother's broken English, he asked for the way, I remembered we ran up a stair onto a traffic road, down into traffic road. I was confused. It seem like a new world to me. I was scared. I'm afraid mama would abandon me so i held on her hand tightly.
to be continue lol
Apr 1 2008, 05:41 PM
awws, it`s cute
Apr 1 2008, 06:43 PM
lol thanks...I guess I will continue.....the beginning is abit......boring....stick with me haha
We were terrify. It's something we never experienced before. We finally was able to ask for a way, we asked a stranger...He was different, no I have seen people like him in movie, but...never in real life, his eyes, it had a color like a mixture of both green and blue. His skin was alot more pale than our. His hair, the color is so light.....it seem faded.....he to me, was a giant, he was terribly tall.........i was scared, I stand behide ma. I know no matter what I would be safe, because as long as mama is here. Nothing is going to go wrong. He led us to somewhere very strange.........a train underground.........We got on...and it was nothing like I know before....it's much faster than a train......I think it's...a subway.
We were finally able to get on the flight. This time it was a short flight. From Los Angeles to Oklahoma. From above I could see the lights of the city in the night. There were so many lights, it was beautiful. I was amazed. At this time. I was wondering, what happen when the airplane land again? Where would we go? What would we do.....where would we live?
Soon, so many questions appeared in my mind. Everything was so blurry, it seem like it was just another dream. The flight landed. We walked through a long tunnel from the airplane directly into the airport.............and there....we went into the elevator, it was my first time. I can still remember the feeling when the elevator went up. It felt so strange....like i was still in the airplane.........and when that door of the elevator opens.......I somehow knew, i had a feeling, it will be a new starting to me.
Apr 2 2008, 05:21 PM
It was that night. I felt such feeling i never felt before, it was a feeling of joy, but sadness, feeling of peace but worry. Felt confused but exciting. When that door opened. It opened a next chapter to my life. From far, the memory is not as vivid anymore.....but i saw people walked back and forth, we were not noticed....What were we going to do? What will happen? Is this new land....like I imagined...a paradise? Is it everything i pictured?
The elevator, didn't take long but seem like an endless ride. It finally opened,we all had been waiting for. We steped out of it, came a voice. It was a very strange and unfamiliar voice, called for us. It was my aunt, it was my first time meeting her, there was her husband and.... grandma. There is no connection or love in ehr eyes when grandma look at us, she only gave us a emotionless look and turn around.
Soon we left the airport and was in a car..........First time ever in such a comfortable car......mama was sitting beside me. I was tired. It's dark. Every was so blurry to me......the smooth ride.......the lights of all colors shining and twinkling in the night. I was relax.........Struggle to keep my eyes open, but I was very tired......and I decided to close my eyes. and soon fell into a blurry dream.
The honk of the car woke me up in surprise......Everything was to different........my Aunt, pressed a button......a house......a house with a door that rolled up to it's top....It was strange...very strange. the car slowly rolled into the little house. We got off the car and I heard a barking noises of ..dogs. My aunt led me into the house.... It was beautiful, it was huge, the model and everythign is different. In the living room is a set of a beautiful white couch with a coffee table. On the wall hang a beautiful piece of art. No not painting, but a very big fan, shieled by the glasses. Opposite from it is a big fancy dinning room. The table was very big with alot of chairs. The color is reddish brown. At the end of the table is a window. A very big window...and when looking up, there was 2 golden dragon. In between the dinning room and the living room is a walking space that led to the kitchen. I was confused....there was a big TV in the Kitchen.....no it's a kitchen and a mini living room and dinning room. When i go back to the walking space, it led me to a hall. Where the restrooms and all the rooms are.
I was caught by surprise when sis pulled my hand and draged me into the big living room. She showed me how comfy the couch was......I feel it...it's so soft......I got on it and we bounced on it. I giggled...and sis was freely laughing...and then we heard soemthing very ugly. It was grandma, she nagged at us, demanded us to get off the couch. We were scared. Sis and I quickly got off the couch. and stood by it. Grandma stared at us...looking from heads to toes.....and with a expression of a bit disgusted and angry, she walked away. I was embarassed and scare.....I want to look for ma.....
Aunty prepared something for us to eat, after that..........I geuss it's time to sleep........we slept on the floor....My whole family......That night, i remembered about alot of things.....about time back in Vietnam, time when my brother come home from the construction sight, his whole face was covered in white except his to eyes. We laughed but I know it's harmful to him. I remember when ma, one afternoon, sis and I was outside in our frotn yard, we saw ma, she was skinny, I can see her bones. sweating, coming home. Her skin was burned by the blazing hot sun......and the time when my other brother said he would teach me to play soccer. And the time when sis and I was picking flowers from the high branch and she fell and scratched herself. Or when that time, brother, sis and I, after a rain, we ran, using papers to fold boats and let it float down the stream casue by the rain. The weather was cool, the sky was blue but there is no sun to be seen. The soft cool wind was the most memorable.
But now, lying here, on the floor....struggling to sleep. I wondered, what lies in the future, waiting for me.
Apr 2 2008, 05:45 PM
....it really hurts when this happens, but keep writing, i want to see where this is going
Apr 2 2008, 08:16 PM
Lol thanks for being the only person that read this topic. lol I dont write so well today lol I wil ltry to speed it up abit. I probably will leave out parts of me dating peopel and stuff
Apr 3 2008, 04:25 PM
xD, its really nice, no worries take your time. the more you rush the more you might mix things up
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