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What I Did for Love
Written By Val
"Ooh, ooh," said Jae Duc. "I want some kimbab!"
Ji Won glared at him. Jae Duc shuts up. "Now I want to talk to all of you about Min Sung. He's only been here for a few months but he had saved my life twice and not to mention, Sung Hoon's." Sung Hoon slapped Min Sung on the back and smiled.
"Now," continued Ji Won. "What do you want Min Sung? A car, money, women? Tell us and it's yours."
"Yeah," said Sung Hoon. "Just name it buddy and it's yours."
I thought about it for a while. The only thing I wanted was Ji Won but I couldn't say that. Since he was suspecting me so much there was only one thing I should ask for. "I want a woman," I told them. They all opened their mouths in shock.
"Alright Min Sung, you dog!" yelled Sung Hoon, breaking the silence. "At least you're proving to us that you're a man now!"
"Okay," said Ji Won slowly. "Who's the girl?"
"So Kyung Hee," I announced.
I saw Sung Hoon's smiling face turn mad.
"Who do you want?" Sung Hoon asked me in disbelief.
I repeated myself. "So Kyung Hee."
Sung Hoon grabbed me by the collar of my shirt. "Out of all the
girls you could have picked, why her?" he yelled at me. I knew
Sung Hoon liked Kyung Hee but Kyung Hee was the only person that could
"He's right," said Ji Won softly. "We can't go back on our words." Ji Won clapped his hands for attention. "So Kyung Hee now belongs to Ahn Min Sung. Anyone from SechsKies who touches her, the penalty is death."
Su Won and Ji Yong had to hold Sung Hoon back from attacking me. "I thought you were my friend!" he yelled as they took him away. I sighed and headed for my room.
Ji Won looked at Min Sung as he was walking away. "Min Sung."
"Are you sure that's what you want?"
"Yes hyung. I've never been more sure in my life." Then Min Sung left.
When I made it back into my room, Kyung Hee was in there waiting for me. "What the hell is going on?" she asked me. I knew it was time to tell her my story. When I finished, she was bawling like a baby. I handed her a tissue.
"Th..that is s..so..romantic," Kyung Hee said, sobbing.
I patted her head as she leaned on me. "No, it's not."
"So you're not going to tell Ji Won who you really are?"
I shook my head. "It wouldn't matter anyways."
"How do you know? If he knows you're still alive, who knows? He might fall in love with you."
"Maybe," I began slowly. "But then he'd love me out of pity and not out of love. I don't want that."
"Oh." Kyung Hee stared at the floor. "I wonder if Mickey really likes me."
"What?!" I asked in surprise.
She looked at me sheepishly. "Oh, I forgot to tell you that Mickey and I are beginning to fall for each other."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't have a chance to. Besides, it just happened."
"I'm sorry Kyung Hee."
"It's okay," she said as she hugged me. "We'll just have to put our little romance on hold for a while. You're more important."
"No, I'll go tell-"
My words were cut off by my lack of air. This time my attack was worser
than it ever had been before. Kyung Hee stared at me frightened.
"Come on, I'll take you to the hospital."
"Don't let the others see me," I said to her before I collapsed
into total darkness.
"It's a miracle that she's still alive," said the doctor.
"Is she going to be okay?" Kyung Hee asked him.
"Well, according to these test results, her heart will expire any time now. We need to get her a heart transplant soon because she's past overdue for 2 years already. I made some calls and there is a matching donor for her in England."
"I'll have to talk to her about it."
"Please do," said the doctor. "It's her only hope of living."
Kyung Hee slowly entered my room. She stared at me with wide eyes.
"You heard everything Mina?"
Kyung Hee ran over and shook me. "Mina, are you crazy? You have to or you'll die."
"No," I told her stubbornly. "It was so hard for me to find Ji Won and I won't let go of him just like that."
Kyung Hee began to cry. "I don't want you to die though."
I looked at her sadly. "You're a good friend Kyung Hee. I know
you'll be the perfect girl for Sung Hoon." I yanked the IV tube
off my arm. "Come on. Let's go home."
My heart condition began to grow worse. My attacks became more frequently
and undetected. It would happen during odd times like when I'm showering
or having dinner with the SechsKies guys. Luckily Kyung Hee was always
there by my side to cover for me.
As for Ji Won, he began to grow distant towards me. He wouldn't talk
to me much and he's been depressed about something lately. I wish I
could know what was bothering him because it hurts me to see him sad
Ji Won was in his depressed state again. There was this empty void
inside him that he couldn't erase. It was a recurring pain that never
seemed to end. He felt lonely.
I entered Ji Won's room holding a tray of food. Now these days since
he was in his isolated stage, he didn't eat much anymore. I was beginning
to worry. I didn't have much time left with him so I wanted to take
care of him the best I could with the time I still had left.
Ji Won turned around to see who it was. It was Min Sung. "Just put it down." Min Sung placed it down before Ji Won. Ramyun, mee-yuk-gook, rice, and curry. 'How does he know I like these food?' Ji Won thought. "Take it away I don't want it."
"But hyung, you haven't eaten for days. Please eat a little bit."
"I said take it away!" Ji Won yelled, his anger exploding.
He knocked over the tray of food. It ended up spilling all over Min
Sung. Ji Won and Min Sung stared at each other. Neither of them knew
what to say. Min Sung leaned over to clean up the spilled food and then
'What a mess', I thought as I stripped out of my clothes. I soaked
myself into a hot water bath, hoping it could wash away all my troubles.
When I was done with my bath, I wrapped myself up in a towel and got
out of the tub. Then I heard my room door open and then close.
Ji Won entered Min Sung's room, not knowing what to say. He wasn't
good at apologizing. He looked around and didn't see Min Sung anywhere.
Then he heard the sound of water draining. He figured Min Sung must
be in the bathroom.
I was buttoning up my long sleeve shirt when my door suddenly opened.
I stared at Ji Won in shock but then remembered I wasn't completely
dressed yet. I buttoned up the remaining buttons and then faced him.
Ji Won stared at Min Sung's exposed body. Without thinking, he ripped
open Min Sung's shirt finding that Min Sung was indeed a woman. Min
Sung stood still, stunned at what Ji Won had just did. He turned Min
Sung's back to him. There it was. His 'E.'
I didn't know what I was more embarrassed from. Letting Ji Won expose
me or being caught. In all my life I had never been angry at Ji Won
but I didn't know why I reacted impulsively. As I held my shirt together,
I slapped Ji Won across the face hard with my other hand. His head snapped
to the side. He held his cheeks as he turned to face me.
Ji Won was in shock. Mina, he thought. He grabbed her arms as she pushed him out. "Mina, don't! Is it really you?"
I glared at him. As if he knew, Ji Won took off his jacket and puts it around my shoulders. I zipped it up, covering myself. "Yes Ji Won, it is me Mina."
"But I thought you were dead."
"I didn't die. I faked my death."
"So I could go to Korea."
"You came all the way from Hawaii to find me? Why didn't you just tell me who you are?"
Ji Won looked at Mina, who had tears coming out of her eyes. He was
about to brush them off for her but then Mina pushed his hand away.
Ji Won began to feel a rush of mixed emotions. Mina's words made him
sad but seeing her alive in front of him, made him want to hold onto
her and never let her go. He paused to let her continue.
Ji Won felt his heart shatter into a million pieces. Each one of Mina's words stabbed him like a knife. "Mina, you don't understand. I-" Mina didn't wait for his explanation and ran. Ji Won chased after her.
"Mina!" he yelled as he chased her out of the hotel.
"Hyung," said Su Won as he saw Ji Won ran by him. Ji Won pushed him out of the way.
Kyung Hee ran up to the 5 Kies. "What happened?"
Su Won shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know. Ji Won was chasing Min Sung and kept screaming Mina."
Kyung Hee stumbled back and Sung Hoon caught her. 'Oh no, poor Mina,'
she thought. She turned around to see Sung Hoon looking at her sadly.
Kyung Hee moved close to him and held onto him tight. Neither one of
them lets go.
It was 3 a.m. and Ji Won had lost Mina. As he chased her down the streets he lost track of where she ran off to. "Mina!" he continued shouting. His cries echoed throughout the streets. A lot of people heard him yelling. So did the Black Dragons.
Tae Won silently crept behind Ji Won. Ji Won was all alone. Tae Won gave an evil smile. He had a plan. He and his sidekick began to set up a trap for Ji Won, which they knew he would fall for.
Ji Won ran through the alleys as he continued searching for Mina. Then he ran into Tae Won. Out of the darkness, Tae Won stepped out. "Looking for someone?" he asked.
"Yeah," said Ji Won, glaring at him. "I'm looking for Min Sung."
"The punk that stabbed me?" Tae Won asked furiously.
"I got him."
"You do?" Ji Won asked surprised. "Hand him over!"
"There he is," said Tae Won, pointing to a figure up ahead. From the back it did look like Min Sung but little did Ji Won know that it was all a setup.
"Mina?" Ji Won whispered as he approached the person. It was a Black Dragon member. He grabbed a hold of Ji Won around the neck and began shooting Ji Won continually in the stomach.
I looked out from where I was hiding when I heard gunshots. "Ji Won!" I screamed as I ran out from where I hid. My scream threw the Black Dragon member off guard. Seeing his chance, Ji Won grabbed the gun from him and shot him in the head. He fell to the floor dead. Tae Won started to run away but Ji Won aimed a shot directly at his heart. Tae Won fell down dead too.
Ji Won looked at me and then collapsed to the cold ground. He wasn't
able to hold on any longer. Rain began to pour.
"How is he?" I asked as I ran up to him.
"He was shot 4 times in the stomach region. As you know, a person needs at least one kidney to survive but both of his are destroyed. Unless we can find a donor, he'll have to die."
"Give him mine," I told the doctor right away.
"Are you sure?" I nodded my head. "Because of your heart condition, if we have this operation that means you can die instantly during the transfer."
I nodded my head again. "I understand. Please let's have the operation now."
They tested me and luckily I was compatible with Ji Won. Six hours later the surgery was completed. It's a miracle that I'm still alive. I knew not for long though.
I woke up finding myself in a hospital bed with Ji Won on a bed next
to me. He was still in a coma. I got out of bed and went near him. I
stroked his hair gently as I bent down to kiss him.
Jae Jin walked over to his bedside. "We're so sorry Matthew hyung. We didn't know what happened until this morning. We got revenge for you though when we wiped out the entire Black Dragon hideout."
"It's okay," he told them softly as they all bowed down.
Then a knock came to his door. The doctor came in. "Oh good, you're awake," he said.
Ji Won looked at him. "Thanks for saving me Doc."
"No need to thank me. Your girlfriend is the one who saved your life."
Ji Won began to panic. "What did she do?"
"She could have gotten a chance to go to England to get a heart transplant but she decided to stay to give you her kidney instead."
"The girl where is she?" he asked frantically.
The doctor looked around the room. "She was supposed to be in
here-" Ji Won got out of bed and ran out of the room, leaving everyone
staring after him.
'Please let Ji Won be okay', I prayed to myself silently. Hopefully my prayers will be answered. So is this the end? My heart never changed because it was still the same one I loved Ji Won with. I couldn't bear the thought of trading it with someone else. I was so confused. Had I finished what I had really come for? What will happen to my love for Ji Won? I didn't know these answers.
I felt weaker and my pen fell from my fingers. I stopped my story right there. Truth is, I didn't know how to end it so I might as well leave it unfinished. I took off my cap and clothes. I was wearing a long white flowing dress underneath. It was the kind I always wanted to wear when I thought I was going to marry Ji Won.
My hair had grown out a little bit. It grazed my chin. I started to put on some light make up and combed my hair. I don't know why I'm getting dressed up for but I knew I wanted to die looking like Nam Mina, and not Ahn Min Sung. I looked at my reflection again. 'At least I look like a girl now', I thought with a little laugh.
When I was done, I leaned against the hard rock and wrapped my arms around it, pretending it was Ji Won. Then I heard a voice yelling out my name. "Mina!" I recognized the voice. Ji Won. I smiled, knowing at least he'll be the last person I'll see before I go.
Ji Won looked around the beach and saw a figure in a white dress. 'Mina,' he thought as he ran towards her. It was Mina. He lifted her into his arms and onto his lap as he sat down on the rocks. "Mina," he whispered to her and kissed her on the neck and face. Tears began to fall down his face.
All of my energy seemed to have been drained as I forced myself to open my eyes. My face felt wet but it wasn't from my tears and it wasn't raining either. My vision was kind of blurred and I couldn't see Ji Won too well. I reached up to touch his face. It was wet. "Ji Won," I whispered to him. "Please don't cry. You're scaring me. I've never seen you cry before."
Ji Won looked down at Mina, through his tear-filled eyes. "I'm
so sorry Mina."
I reached up to wipe away Ji Won's tears. "I didn't expect anything back from you oppa. But I want to know why did you leave me in Hawaii? I could have called the wedding off if you didn't want to marry me." I felt Ji Won's grip on me tighten.
"I didn't mean to leave you Mina," answered Ji Won, his voice shaking. "I couldn't take my dad anymore. My grandpa had given me his inheritance and I planned on taking you and Sung Hoon with me. I didn't tell you about it because I was afraid you wouldn't leave your family for me. When I came to your house to get you, my uncle's men were there waiting for me and chased me to the docks. I escaped but I wanted to go back but couldn't. I could have put your life in danger. This isn't the first time I've cried Mina. I cried when I knew I was going to be separated from you."
Despite the pain, I managed to smile. Ji Won didn't want to leave me,
I thought. "Look Ji Wonee, I'm wearing the dress I always wanted
to wear if we had gotten married."
One thing was still bothering me. I think I managed to hold onto my life this long because of this question. "Ji Wonee, do you love me? I mean romantically, and not as your dongsang."
Ji Won looked down at Mina. She was beautiful. His heart ached when he saw how pale she was. He realized she never did know that he had loved her all along. "Yes, Mina," he told her. "I loved you since the first day we met. I loved you then and I had never stopped loving you." He bent down to kiss her.
My heart was deepened to a warm bliss. Ji Won said he loved me, I told myself as I felt him kiss me. Then a cold realization washed over me but I didn't really care. I always thought that I was hurt when I didn't receive Ji Won's love. Instead, I found out my pain came from when I didn't give Ji Won enough love. I haven't told Ji Won I loved him yet.
"Ji Won," I said to him as he looked down at me. "Thank you for making my dream come true by saying that you love me. I know you're lying and just saying it to repay me but you didn't have to. I did it all because I-I-"
I was losing my voice. Not now, please, I prayed as tears fell down
my face. I need to tell him before I go. I reached into my pocket and
pulled out the white marble stone Ji Won had given to me when I was
Min Sung. I pointed towards the ocean to make Ji Won look. I threw the
stone with all my remaining strength. It skipped 3 times.
As Ji Won listened to what Mina was saying, he was stunned still. He
couldn't believe his ears. She thought he was saying he loved her as
payment of what she had done for him. More tears fell down his face
as he shook his head. Then when Mina pointed out to the ocean, Ji Won
saw her throw the stone he had given her.
Sung Hoon and the others finally made it to where Ji Won and Mina was.
They circled Ji Won, who was bent over holding someone they couldn't
"Mina?" the others repeated.
"Min Sung is Mina?" asked Ji Yong.
Ji Won nodded his head. "She dressed up as a guy to join SechsKies to be with me."
"You're right, Mickey. Mina did love Matthew hyung," said Jae Duc quietly.
Sung Hoon got up and hugged both Ji Won's and Mina's bodies tightly.
"Why?" he asked crying. Everyone remained silent. Ji Won shook
his head. He moved away from Sung Hoon and turned to face all of them.
"Mina," Ji Won began. "When you were alive, I was never able to tell you that I loved you. Now that you're gone, you don't believe I love you. Even though I never showed you the kind of love you wanted me to, it doesn't mean I didn't love you with all I have." Ji Won paused and yanked off the ring around his necklace. "With SechsKies here as my witnesses, I, Eun Ji Won, take Nam Mina as my wife 'til eternity. I have nothing to give you Mina except my heart, which belonged to you from the first day we met."
He kissed her lips as he slipped on the ring. The others watched him
in silence. They were surprised when because of all the time Ji Won
had been their leader, he had never used his real name Ji Won before.
They knew he was serious. When it was over, Ji Won lifted Mina up into
his arms as he stood up.
"What?" they all asked in disbelief.
"Hyung," said Su Won. "Please reconsider."
Ji Won shook his head. "This is the second time Mina left me. I really can't go on as your leader. The person I loved the most is taken away from me too soon and she died not knowing that I truly do love her."
The others understood what Ji Won meant. Jae Jin walked up to Ji Won. "What do you plan to do then Matthew?"
"I don't know," he answered. I'll be somewhere where I'll always be with Mina and constantly remind her that I love her. And as for SechsKies, with all the money and businesses we have, I don't see any reason why we have to commit any more crimes. We each have enough money to spend for the rest of our lives already."
They all nodded.
Ji Won placed a hand on Sung Hoon's shoulder. "Sung Hoon," said Ji Won.
"Yes hyung?" asked Sung Hoon. "If you do love Kyung Hee, tell her before it's too late."
Sung Hoon nodded. "I will."
Ji Won looked at his 5 brothers for the last time. "This final meeting of SechsKies is now adjourned. I wish you all the best and hope you do find your true love because I have. Good bye."
Ji Won picked up Mina's book and scribbled something into it. When he was done, he placed it down back on the rock. Then Ji Won lifted Mina's body up into his arms as he walked away.
"Hyung!" shouted Sung Hoon. "Where are you going?"
Ji Won continued walking and didn't answer him. The 5 Kies watched their leader walk towards the sunset carrying his bride and disappeared. They picked up the book to see what Ji Won had written. The last entry of Mina's story was,
True love never has an ending.
Be sure to check out Val's "It Was You All Along" and our AsiaFinest's interview with her. Feel free to talk about "What I Did For Love" in our friendly discussion forum!
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